Thanks my friends! But I am afraid today just isn't going to be a great day for me, though it saved me from a much worse day later. I took my meds so I am calm again thank God. I admit I was hooked bad and thinking of marriage, so I know I would have been fooled for likely much longer.
The young lady in the photo only graduated from high school in 2011 for God's sake. Just a kid really. Diffidently not the 39 year old woman I was thinking about.
Now I have to tell the preacher I was fooled and that to take her off the prayer list. If I knew the name of the creep, that is who I would pray for. For she or he needs God's help for sure.
Anxiety meds are a life saver when you truly need them. It is terrible that people abuse them making them harder to get for those of us who need them.
I thought in some strange way my late wife was helping me find her, knowing I needed someone to help me be happy. Instead I walked into a trap that only an ignorant old fool like me would miss all of the red flags of it all.
Anyway I will survive to hopefully not make the same mistakes again. I am debating deleting my Facebook account now, since I am easily fool this way apparently.
Happy fourth to you all my friends!